High On Life

Despite having been fired for the first time in my life, from a job that I actually enjoyed, I am really fucking happy.


I have an understanding and supportive mother.

I have friends that truly care for me, and that are there for me whenever I need them.

I have a bed to sleep in, food in my cabinets, clothes on my back, and a car to drive.

I have a budding romance with very sweet and caring guy.


Tomorrow I plan on applying for jobs at several places, including Express and Starbucks. Maybe, if I am lucky, I will have a job by next week. I am tired of relying so heavily on my mom, and I feel like a loser having had her support me for so long.

Let's hope this unemployment stint is much shorther than the previous one.

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Tributes

Tonight I realized that I don't often have sentimental moments with friends. I have never really told them exactly what they mean to me. I figure that there is no better time than the present.

The following "testimonials" are in NO PARTICULAR ORDER.


A.Y. -- You are beautiful and amazing. You seriously have your shit together. You are responsible, smart, educated, motivated, kind, selfless, and funny. I could continue to try to describe you with adjectives and character traits, but that would take a very, very long time. In short, I don't know what I would do without you. You inspire me. I love you with all of my heart.

J.F. -- Where do I begin with this girl? Almost three years you approached me at school and asked me if I was gay; we have been friends ever since. We were nearly inseparable for quite a while, and it never got old. Well, except for those two weeks in VA last summer. You always keep things interesting, and you can always make me laugh. You put me in my place when I need it, yet keep from being resentful. I love you very much, and I am so glad to have you back.

M.M. -- Out of the people honored in this blog, I have known you the longest, yet we have been BFFs for the shortest amount of time. We have been through so many different things together, and I have told you things that I have never told anyone else in the world. I trust you. I love you. You are my friend, you are my brother, you are my son. Thank you for keeping it real, keeping me on my toes, and keeping me out of trouble laughing. You and I have many heart-to-heart's, so you should know how I feel about you. I love you.

N.G. -- To be continued...

J.M. -- You are the glue. You are the mother. You keep our group together. You keep our house together. You take care of the details. You will always lend an ear to listen if needed. You are firm in you values/morals/ethics, yet you are never judgemental. You drive me to the light rail when I need you to. I know that no matter what the situation, no matter what time of day, no matter how inconvenient, you will be there for me if/when I need you. Last, but certainly not least, you are morally superior, and everyone needs someone like that in their life. How else would I know that I am an irresponsible, fucked up slut, and that it is ok?


If you were not honored in this here blog of mine, it does not mean that you are not special to me. Just ask me, and I will tell you how I feel about you. Just make sure you catch me in the right mood.

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Silver Linings (cont.)

After I was terminated from my position at Whole Foods, I raced up to Longmont to pick up Mr. Ink to go to Echo's dance recital in Boulder. He was out and waiting for me as I pulled up, and he looked good. Boy lnows how to dress.

After the recital, we got some coffee and walked down Pearl Street Mall for a little while. Then, we decided to go to Flatiron Crossing. I wanted to go to Nordstrom. He wanted to go to Hot Topic.

We had originally had plans to go to a poetry slam in Denver, but decided that a movie might be a better idea, considering he had to be up at 5 AM the next morning for work. Nothing was playing for at least another hour, so we went back to Longmont to catch a movie there.

He let me pick the movie.
And he let me wear his sweater.
And he paid for the movie.

I'll spare any further details for the moment, but I will tell you this. By the end of the night Mr. Ink kissed me. And it was nice. Really nice.

I don't know where we are at right now, and I am a big fan of knowing where I am at. It's ok though. I am doing what I can to just let go. Let go and let things happen as they will. I am excited, yet cautious.

More on this later, maybe. I may have to make an appointment with my therapist first.

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"You're Fired!" (cont.)

I went in to Whole Foods this evening to get my final paycheck.

Luckily, I had Matty with me. This was not completely coincidental. Let's just say that Matty is very talented when it comes to conveying emotion. Or giving people dirty looks. Or telling them off, VERY well.

One of the "Store Leaders" finally managed to fetch my check from wherever they had it. She is not someone I really wanted to deal with, so I kind of avoided her when I saw her popping up all around the store looking for me. I am not quite sure whether she was looking for me, or keeping her eye on me.

When she finally hunted me down, Matty gave her a very satisfactory glare. I could actually see her physical reaction. She compensated by being extra bitchy when handing my check over.

It sounds, and is, very childish in the long run, but it was something I needed. For the past 36 hours or so I have been telling my story, and everyone that I tell agrees. Everyone that I have told has validated everything that I have been thinking, most recently my mother.

So, tonight I will sleep soundly. I will sleep soundly knowing that I am a great employee, and an even greater person. I will sleep soundly knowing the people I hold at highest regard in my life are on my side. I will sleep soundly knowing that tomorrow is a new day, full of positive experiences and opportunities. Most of all, I will sleep soundly knowing I will survive. "Separating" from Whole Foods is not the end of the fucking world.

With this blog out of the way, I'm going to have to come up with an extended version of my date-thing on Sunday.

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Silver Linings

You might remember a previous post of mine regarding a certain guy at a certain meeting.

Well, what seemed like the end was just the beginning, and I am excited to see what happens.

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"You're Fired!"

Yesterday I was "terminated" from Whole Foods. It wasn't quite like a Trump firing though; more surreal and somber. I think I went into shock.

I don't care to get into the details, but here's the Reader's Digest version:

Apparently, my till was $199.98 short on Saturday night. The [not-so-]funny thing is, I was only $.02 over when my supervisor and I counted my till at the end of my shift. The discrepancy was only discovered yesterday afternoon.

I don't buy it.

Fuck Whole Paycheck, I'm going to Wild Oats.

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