Life, Love, and Cigarettes
"Things do not change; we change." -Henry David Thoreau
One year ago I was [barely] graduating from high school. I was working at Linens N Things, and pretty much hated it. I had started to disconnect with my Denver friends. When it all boiled down though, I was happy.
One year later, I have [barely] finished my first semester of college. I work for my mom's boyfriend, and I am not sure how I feel about it. I have made new Denver friend, and reconnected with some old ones. I'm still happy.
So much for change.
The truth is, some things never change. One of those things is my attitude. For the most part, I am a very positive person. I like to look at the bright side, and try not to worry or let things bring me down. There will always be shitty jobs. Friendships will fade, and new friendships will grow.
On the other hand, I have changed. As each day passes, I learn more about life, love, and most of all, myself. Over the past few years, I have learned that I am valuable. I have learned that I don't have to deal with people's shit. I don't need people in my life that bring me down and treat me poorly. I still have a lot to learn though.
Someone once told me that you must love yourself to be able to love someone else. For the longest time, I relied on others to make me feel good about myself. Or left it to others to make me feel bad about myself. To an extent I still do it today; if I am denied by someone, I start to wonder what is wrong with me.
The point of all of this is a new start. I am going to start living for myself. Not worry about what other people think. Not be afraid to express how I feel and what I think. Not waste my time with boys that can't appreciate what I have to offer.
I'm sure you may be wondering what cigarettes have to do with anything. Well, Kids, I have decided to quit smoking. There are many things motivating me, but most of all, I just don't feel good. I started this little journey of mine last week. I have managed to cut back from a pack a day to half a pack a day. Soon I will be at five or fewer cigarettes a day. I hope to have fully quit by July 1st. Wish me luck!
♥
One year ago I was [barely] graduating from high school. I was working at Linens N Things, and pretty much hated it. I had started to disconnect with my Denver friends. When it all boiled down though, I was happy.
One year later, I have [barely] finished my first semester of college. I work for my mom's boyfriend, and I am not sure how I feel about it. I have made new Denver friend, and reconnected with some old ones. I'm still happy.
So much for change.
The truth is, some things never change. One of those things is my attitude. For the most part, I am a very positive person. I like to look at the bright side, and try not to worry or let things bring me down. There will always be shitty jobs. Friendships will fade, and new friendships will grow.
On the other hand, I have changed. As each day passes, I learn more about life, love, and most of all, myself. Over the past few years, I have learned that I am valuable. I have learned that I don't have to deal with people's shit. I don't need people in my life that bring me down and treat me poorly. I still have a lot to learn though.
Someone once told me that you must love yourself to be able to love someone else. For the longest time, I relied on others to make me feel good about myself. Or left it to others to make me feel bad about myself. To an extent I still do it today; if I am denied by someone, I start to wonder what is wrong with me.
The point of all of this is a new start. I am going to start living for myself. Not worry about what other people think. Not be afraid to express how I feel and what I think. Not waste my time with boys that can't appreciate what I have to offer.
I'm sure you may be wondering what cigarettes have to do with anything. Well, Kids, I have decided to quit smoking. There are many things motivating me, but most of all, I just don't feel good. I started this little journey of mine last week. I have managed to cut back from a pack a day to half a pack a day. Soon I will be at five or fewer cigarettes a day. I hope to have fully quit by July 1st. Wish me luck!
♥
posted by Eric at 8:07 PM
1 Comments:
Good for you man. Im very proud of you. :)
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